i am back to blog again. hehe, recently then found out tht i hv r.blood in me. is sth tht not all ppl will hv so i actually feel honoured abt it. i wan to get rid of all the stupid stuff and be brand new again. i keep struggling over alot of stuff and i am actually tired of it. i am just not the type of person i hope to be,i cant turn myself into tht cause i will lose myself over it. but i guess i will slp it off and see wat i can do abt it. i wan to be his wife,but i am not sure if he wans to be my husband. is lyk sth tht bugs me or i shld say make me insecured. but i choose to let fate decide and today he is piss with me the whole day cause i didnt pick up his call and reply his text this morning. sometimes i find him really unreasonable,abit of stuff can change his mood to the worse and is really a small stuff. if today he is the 1 who didnt do tht,i wont get angry for long with him. cause i don find a point in picking a fight over stuff thts lyk accident or unintentionally. i wont bother abt him until he talks to me, i just wanna rest and relax till sch starts,i dont need the additional stress from him when is not needed. i really hope he can uds my pov and my stand. is really not easily to be me,idk when the hell he will be unhappy or he will be happy. he needs to uds me too. i aint iron woman,i will get tired doing all these. i really wan to last long with him maybe i just need to slp and i will be fine tmr. nights ppl

So i had been watching GG since 2 or 3 days back,totally hooked to it. but for my own health sake,i hv to change back to my normal lifestyle,didnt wan to fall sick again for at least 2 mths. So i havent been meeting my fatso since erm 4 days back,he has been a good kid for hving patience with me for this week. anw, here i am gonna do a new top 10 list on why i love him which is totally random. 1. He is there for me when i need him everytime,helping me with wat he could 2. Never look down or judge me when i am stuck in those shity stuff 3. using his way to encourage me (spite me) so tht i can do a better job 4. when he say ily or imy,i know he meant it,cause he wont say those when he dont 5. He doesn't say those mushy stuff tht make me feel lyk puking cause thts not our type of stuff 6. he know me well enough to know wats good and wats not for me 7. he is not only my bf he is also my best bud,my soulmate and my sister 8. he know how to make me smile everytime,when i talk to him,i always feel lyk a happy girl 9. he is not lyk those bf who will say sweet stuff,but i know his heart through his action 10. he love me for who i am he isn't perfect,but i love him, for his good and his bad. as we grow older and mature,things changed and not lyk how it were when we 1st started out(thts the norm i guess),i am always grateful tht i hv you for all these while even after tht long brk. I love you. always have,always will.

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So I am back to blog. Stopped blogging for a yr plus. to be honest,i feel so stressful, i always worried tht my r/s will end. i know he love me, his words wont show how much he love me but his action will. we seem lyk we lost those sweet words,those passion after the brk ups,i really hope we wont lose our love. After he got into ns,i feel lyk he become another guy,not the guy i love. but after staying with him from his ns till now, i realised no matter how much he changed,i still love him. i choose to accept his changes and still stick with him. i dont intend to change him,i don intend to control him with who he mix with and stuff. even he mix with girls,i wont stop him. after 2 yrs 3 mths tgt,i bet all my trust tht he wont be unfaithful. if in the end, he really do sth unfaithful,at least i know i trust him b4 and i will call it fate.of course i dont hope tht day will come. so pray hard for us to be tgt for as long as we could. i withdrawn from curtin few mths back. tht's not my place,not where i shld belong. is just too many rich ppl mixing ard and showing their branded stuff. or maybe i shld say i am not good enough to be there. so i truly hope sim will take me in cause i miss schooling tht much. hoho,done sumarising for the past 1 yr. just wanna find a place to rant.